Between Versions of Yourself
A costume contest, a name I borrowed on the spot, & the self that only exists when I'm dancing
This essay is for you if you've ever become someone unexpected for one night, & missed her ever since
Leaving a piece of yourself somewhere & becoming whoever's next.
This essay is for you if you're still becoming — & you're okay with that
Unpacking a balikbayan box, and the parts of yourself that don't come with a tracking number
This essay is for you if you've ever wondered how long it takes to actually arrive somewhere, even after you've already landed
Watching someone else's steadiness & wondering when it's your turn
This essay is for you if you're still waiting to grow into your own certainty
The same lesson, showing up in a different face each time
This essay is for you if you're finally ready to stop looking outward for the answer
Being loved versus being known — & finally getting both
This essay is for you if you've ever wondered whether anyone would love the real you